Friday, April 19, 2019

A life & (literal) heart update

It has most definitely been a wild start to 2019 already. There have been so many big things happening. I’m honestly still trying to wrap my head around most of it. I’ll share the big things that of been happening: 
1) I found out that my heart condition, an enlarge aortic root & descending aorta have gotten large enough to the point where I will be needing open heart surgery within the next year and a half. Yep. You heard that right. I thought this was going to be some thing I’d have to deal with in the distant future; but despite taking medications & living a very healthy life, at 32 years old my chromosomal abnormality that has caused this congenital heart issue is now giving me no other options but to do what is best for my health. And this means surgery. Disclaimer: yes it’s scary but it truly is the best option. I am nervous about the actual procedure but more anxious about the recovery and support.
 However, overall I am definitely at peace about it. This is because I believe I’m getting really good wisdom and clarity from the most knowledgeable expertise and I know who my Creator is and that I am in his hands. 
2) I am in my very last week of nurse practitioner school. Oh my goodness, I can’t even begin to express all of the emotions I feel about this. I’m so ready to be done, and at the same time I don’t feel fully prepared to be a nurse practitioner all on my own. I’ve learned so much but still feel like I have so much more to learn. Also, I’m so torn because I want to work in pediatrics. It’s my superpower, especially if I get to work in endrocrinokogy. However, I have no idea what my first FNP job will be...if it will be acute care, family practice or pediatrics. It’s a big question mark. Prayers are so appreciated. 
3)I’m getting an apartment of my own! This is a big deal for me y’all. I moved out of my parents home to go to college at 17 years old & have always had a roommate. The first time in my life, I will be able to create my own living space. I don’t think I’ve ever needed it more after finishing this nursing grad school program. I pray it is the right place and will peace peaceful and fitting.
4) I have a brand new baby niece. She’s happy and healthy, and the absolutely cutest. I’m so proud of my sister and brother-in-law for their teamwork in her birth. Our whole family is in love!  She was born in April 6th. 💛💛💛