Lately

Lately, I have been more aware of how I am feeling.  It's a good thing.  Could also be due to being tired and maybe that isn't so great.  In the last few weeks, I have been feeling kind of alone, and at times lonely.  My heart longs for community and relationship, but it feels lacking.  That is why I say I feel alone, because everyone I know is so busy and living their own life and it's enable connections to be formed.  It's difficult and a let down to want to go deeper and just spend more quality time with someone, but it doesn't happen.  Not to say this isn't happening at all, but it's either few and far between or with far away friends where I don't have the ability to spend time with them in person.  However, I am asking God to search my heart in all this and I am drawing closer to Him.  And speaking the truth His promises real in my own heart and mind.